10's

UH-OH_________ A call: Where are you? Why did you leave me? I was waiting for you!
Right, Coming back now, wait.


IT'S FRIDAY: INTERNAL REAL_________Text: Are you back, out?
Call: Dinner...They're late...Let's see after...
Text: You're on you're first Jack and I'm on my first vodka.
Reply: Auf dich!
Text: I do not speak---Is that German or Russian? Sounds nasty, haha.


THIS IS RESEARCH____________[A bottle of Kurant later, vomited three times over, wanting to sleep with the hogged toilet bowl---Oh Claudine! My Claudine! It is you here--- my savior, toilet bowl! Retch! Wretch!]


DATA__________The feet flash in dated dance--- laughable again dizzy again.
It's all about fucking--- swing, swiiiiing, shwiiiiing, shhhhhhwiiiiing.
[What? Huh? Ah, they are asking me to put my booted feet down, now perched to record. Don't want to mar the white sofa.]
Wife's dancing like now is tomorrow: No.
It's...It's...It's Elizabeth Ramsey!
Look at my scrawls in this strobe--- It is as if made by another hand.


FEEDBACK__________You and I---Hik---Let us be the crossed-eyes--- Smaller and finite in this drug---Hik--- I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHERE I AM. Once more, it is just the bass I feel on my ass that is my dead heart that beats my limbs--- Here, my thighs---Hik.


OH SHIT___________Let us go--- Insane I--- Let us leave while you and I still think. Hik. Look at them--- Look at us, here and now--- Do you hear your voice,
So calm and this sadness you and I have been deluding ourselves to feel


YOUR MARRIAGE______ Pretending that all is fine when it is but...But..
This part, common and unenlightened by honesty except when alone


HEART________Look at them---
---This is not what you and I are and you are relieved.
I see 40 tonight, a failure with "us".


I DO NOT WANT THIS_____We pay, I pay, this noise for silence. A lighter for a light: I look around and see the frenzy of the lonely. Stop--- stop laughing--- I no longer want to remember what disgusts me unto laughter!


GOODBYE____________Hik--- The apology--- I'm sorry...I was just feeling goddamn so lonely... Sigh, I sigh, "I know. I understand. Why do you think I came back for you?"

LOOK AROUND---- THE DANCE FLOOR FULL OF ELEANOR RIGBY.