Thursday, May 15, 2008

I on “dashboard”

May 11, 2008 12:50 pm; May 12, 2008 1:34 pm; May 13, 2008 12:28 pm



On a Monday, I was pounding the car’s dashboard.

“Jesus Christ! I can’t take more of this shit! I hate it! I HATE IT!”

He says, “Accept it: you will be forever hounded by love.”

“I DON’T NEED LOVE! I NEED MY FRIENDS AND I LOSE FRIENDS BECAUSE OF THIS FUCKING LOVE! I DON’T WANT THIS LOVE! IT MESSES UP EVERYTHING! I WANT MY FRIENDS BACK! I DON’T WANT TO LOSE MORE FRIENDS!”

I stopped pounding the dashboard with my palms, stopped screaming, and covered my face as I burst into sobs.

He gives me tissue.

I sniffled “Thank you” as I blew my nose.

Then I smiled for a Happy Monday.

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